not that anyone asked

but

i feel like a hack

–

sometimes bursts of inspiration come

an overwhelming onslaught

catching me off guard

knocking me off my feet

tossing me into a free fall

whilst i careen headlong

into a stone wall

lined in razor sharp

disappointment

–

i was watching youtube

while contemplating this condition

regarding certain

psychological afflictions

and my self-diagnosis

is self-hatred

–

i’m in a committed relationship

with dissatisfaction

but every so often

my eyes

begin to wander

–

occasionally

i wince

reading something back

wondering

where the juice went

–

pumping it out

piece after piece

hoping this cart

finds its way back to the tracks

–

guess it doesn’t help to worry though

just gotta keep at it

til i get it right