as much as
it disgusts me
i still
love her
–
despite her
infidelity
the mind games
the constant
guilt
i still look back on the good times
–
she shaped me
groomed me
helped me discover so much
–
introduced me to
the highest highs
the lowest lows
guided me
towards manhood
–
i thought i
only
wanted sex
–
all i wanted was
love
–
the afterglow
post-coital bliss
enveloped in warm sweat beaded embrace
scent
of sex emanating
wet spot love marking
lust
and experimentation
–
baring my soul to
the one person
i allow to
see me
guard down
–
baring my soul
to her
every secret
exposed
–
i can’t forget that
–
no matter
how it ended
or the time that passes
–
here’s to you
pathogen rose
with the sweet lips and
thorn tipped tongue
blooming out of sight
for whoever prunes you