she messaged me for awhile but

i guess she lost interest

in me

a sharp pain explodes

in my chest

however briefly

replaced soon with numbness

i don’t know if it’s more of shame or disappointment

of bleeding heart or

bruised ego

wounded pride turns to cool

indifference

and the heat in my cheeks fades as well

i did like her

enjoyed the attention

the banter

the conversations

how my mind would turn

to weightless fantasy

lifting me for a moment

with thoughts of her warmth

of her embrace

of her support and

care

but i was probably there to suit a need

or perhaps

it was my fault for waiting too long

for not acting on it sooner

oh well

at least i still have me