she messaged me for awhile but
i guess she lost interest
in me
a sharp pain explodes
in my chest
however briefly
replaced soon with numbness
i don’t know if it’s more of shame or disappointment
of bleeding heart or
bruised ego
wounded pride turns to cool
indifference
and the heat in my cheeks fades as well
i did like her
enjoyed the attention
the banter
the conversations
how my mind would turn
to weightless fantasy
lifting me for a moment
with thoughts of her warmth
of her embrace
of her support and
care
but i was probably there to suit a need
or perhaps
it was my fault for waiting too long
for not acting on it sooner
oh well
at least i still have me